Journal_Comfort

THE COMFORT ZONE

Padded, soft, dark and small. This place gives you comfort and shields you from the outside world. It is your creation and is habitable by only you.

Full of nets and many layers, it offers you protection from hurt, disappointment, pain and suffering. A place filled with emptiness, loneliness and sadness. It radiates from your being for all to see....if probed deeply enough.

I know of this place as I was given a guided tour.

The entry way is somewhat misleading as there is a small amount of light there. Enough light that leads me to believe there is a wonderful journey ahead. And so my probing begins....

Moving beyond the entry way, I come upon what I call the security room. A very small room with padding beyond my comprehension. A room that reeks of the insecurities that come from within you.

Leaving this room, I enter the hub of this zone. Full of layers upon layers of nets. Nets that have much wear and tear. They have been used to catch you when you were falling. Always there, protecting you from harm. When opportunities of life and love enter your world, you pull the cord and the nets drop....putting a barrier between you and the experiences that would allow you to grow, expand your horizons and most of all....feel.

My tour of this place has lasted long enough. Too long, maybe. I now suffer the after effects in my mind and heart. After effects that I will turn into lessons of life....in time.

I thank you for your tour of this dark and lonely place; and the invitation to stay, but I will not reside here. Hurt, disappointment, pain and suffering are a part of my life. It is how I learn and grow and to stay here with you, would be impending death.

And, I want to live.